well my minions. not much has happened. i havent updated because of that. i cant talk about my job because its kind of a big deal. so that leaves not much to talk about. mabel just had her second birthday on the 2nd of this month, january. it wont be much longer until im HOME!
ive planned out the dates for my vacation. im not posting them on here because i dont want my ex husband to read this and try to sabatoge my parade. but i will say one thing. the hotel is booked! and boy oh boy is it gunna be a good time.
me and micheau are on kind of bad terms again. he doesnt enjoy paying his child support. so i had to force my hand via chain of command. i wish things could be different. he doesnt seem interested in our daughter. he doesnt attempt to call her or web chat with her. as her mommy, its very frustrating to me because shes the best person in this whole world and i simply cant understand why he wouldnt want to form a bond with her. ive come to terms with it mostly but there are still nights where i lay awake thinking about her and hoping things will turn around with micheau and that he'll want more to do with her. he spoke of spending summers with her and holidays... but then turned around and made it appear as though he doesnt think shes worth a 12 hour drive. she TOTALLY is worth that drive. i would do it and i expected the same from a loving father. its just disappointing for me to feel as though he doesnt see that little angel in the same light as i do.
i had about 50 pictures printed off and im gunna start keeping an album of her years. i will back track eventually and print out 50 pictures from her 1st year of life i just have to get to that. i am just so busy working 12 hour days. i work "2nd shift" and when i get off work i go to the gym and hit the hay. maybe ill work on it tonight at work if i have some down time. we will see though. whelp thats it for tonight. talk to yall later =]
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